[after the conclusion of Pauline Reage's novel,
The Story Of O]
"Once in a lifetime, do a girl in."
---T. S. Eliot, Sweeney Agonistes
Even though I pretend she is my sole possession,
bound to and by me in a private slavery,
that fact that she exists apart is, still, expression
that violates my perfected fantasy.
So I subject her to my total domination;
drawing her further downward by step and degree
unto the uttermost point of real abnegation
including irrevocably full abdication
even the very last shreds of her own free will,
such that the satisfaction of my own desire
is all, and only that, to which she can aspire
so that she must believe that only I decree
the only by which she can and must fulfill
all my imperatives, to her last breath.
To pulverize her personality,
to lead her to its ultimate rejection,
will cause her to become a mere reflection
of my own, dominant reality.
Thus crushed, her final offering to me
will be her eager, self-inflicted death.
This is my onl